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Something a Log once told me...

Posted by BaronVonBadGuy - February 21st, 2024


This should help clarify certain elements given numerous inquiries....


Though this is very close to how I look at reality, that is not the reason such is being posted. In addition, your questions often have there answers on the very page you were on that inspired your uncertainty. Though there are some glasses you may find useful. Putting said glasses on however may take away from what you once could see in exchange for only now seeing that you are presently desiring to so have shown to you.


And yes, I am a fan of David Lynch, you might find we hold a number of similar outlooks in regards to Art, along that Metaphysical and to a degree, Spirituality. My favorite film of his would be a three-way tie: Eraserhead, The Elephant Man and Inland Empire. With Elephant Man and The Straight Story being two outliers within his Filmography, I.E. far from the unusual nature of his works. Though they still hit all the proper Lynchian patterns that can be found in nearly all of his Works. (And no, I don't consider "Dune" part of Lynch's Filmography.)


If you are unfamiliar with this particular Director and like my more Chaotic/Abstract Music, you will most certainly enjoy David Lynch. Eraserhead and Inland Empire would be what I would recommend for those desiring something very unusual. Though out of all the films, the one I can state I personally can very much relate to is The Elephant-man, not due to looks, but the life depicted not being too far off additional misery that was willfully added to me when certain individuals in the past were aware of my Mental Health and wanted nothing more than to worsen it and then take advantage of said individual when they are at there weakest, for their own fiscal gain.

I've been in more Mental Hospitals than can be counted on my hands, and needless to say, have been abused by staff last time I was, in this case, committed to a Mental Hospital. (Nor was I the only one, it was the whole floor. I would have rather been in Prison, and this particular hospital does everything it can to ensure visitors have no means to take a picture or the like, yet not for good reasons.)

I desire to press charges but clearly you can see why they are willing to do such to those in the Mental Health unit, we get written off as crazy even when one is there for something as benign as needing a safe place to be in due to the passing of a loved one.


P.S. As I now proof read my comments and replies, I do apologize for the typos, when I type on Newgrounds, it is virtually always when I am quite intoxicated, and/or have been writing for hours and hours on end already to the point I do a rushed job. That is basically the only time I can stand to be on here, no fault of any legitimate fan and/or person who simply likes the personality they see on screen.


~M


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Good to know you are still kicking. Things any better than before?

Depends on the time, been on this site over 20 years, but overall I am getting certain things organized for something potentially larger. So far as content creation goes much of what I have been dedicating my time toward is a rather massive undertaking. I assume will be earnestly being chipped away at after my research in various subject matter both generally too esoteric for the mainstream along theological and from a diverse pool of seemingly unconnected individuals who all just so happen to each be pointing toward what I will simply refer to as a "Pattern" with numerous corroborating factors underlying said pattern merging these once independently assessed conclusions now have a web of connections linking their various ideas that at worst strengthen said other individuals position, build off each other, or at best, continue pointing with all the more accuracy to said greater pattern that has gone unnoticed.
If ever there is anything I can offer existence is that I am working on as more is unearthed, be it from text and/or experimentation. However, no matter my I.Q. and what organization I decide to join due to my score in hopes such would bolster sales, yet in reality, selling this without at least a Doctorate will ensure few individuals would ever read that I am working toward revealing. Thus I am going to release a few smaller works leading up to this, using certain Video Games which, in my opinion have transcended the medium completely redefining what a "Video Game" could, in essence be. I must admit so far as my goals they leave little else to have time for. Especially when one factors in this isn't only reading books and carefully uncovering the various variables I have mentioned, this so too includes performing experiments, (anything life-threatening I take on myself, so too anything sanity shattering.) And as mentioned in a prior Blog, that I am taking reading/contrasting comparing and compiling that of relevance, is in excess of over 100 books not including all Religious/Mythological, the plus is, I read more than half of those books when I was in my 20's, and know what one's should now be once again read, and what I can glance over on the off chance I missed something of relevance. Yet at the same time I feel the world is in need of what I have to offer and don't have much longer before things truly go (potentially) nuclear...

Regardless, I hope all is going well on your end.

~Michael

need to dig more into david lynch's stuff someday

Depending on your taste in movie you may be more inclined to say, "Blue Velvet," or be hit from out of let field with "Wild At Heart."
Likewise, if you have Netflix, you can't go wrong with his short 15 minute film "What Did Jack do?"

@BaronVonBadGuy don't have netflix (and, well, can't - it's blocked in my country) but i'll definitely take a look at some of his creations; also thanks for the suggestions

@BaronVonBadGuy I wish i had something like that... to feel like a true pioneer exploring the unknown or to feel to be at the tip of something world-shattering. You are working yourself up in a frenzy, so do take care as to not endeavor yourself up into sliced ribbons, no matter how important your work is, you still need to cut yourself some leeway lest you break completely down. Also, nuclear or world-ending... naw, we ain't reaching that point yet. We are still on a slow climb upon it although, the consequences of excess are slowly showing their true colours. You still got time, to thump out your thesis in relative peace and safety (give or take your environment). As for me, on the First of last January, while i was awaiting the new year with thousands of people in the city square, i think i finally pulled my head out of my ass and woke up from this Fugue or runaway daydream i was stuck in for the last decade. It chafes my balls something fierce knowing i semi-intentionally wasted a decade of my life but now i am determined to not waste any more. I will see what good that does for me, still too early to judge.

Anyways, good luck with your research, may you complete your masterwork during your lifetime
~Dmitry

Thank you quite kindly for your comment, you actually sound like someone I would interact with in real life, and likewise one with, from what I assess, certain similar outlooks. I would say, on your behalf, the fact that you "learned" you were wasting your life for a decade is something that is not quite as wasteful as it may seem, otherwise you would still be within the same confines and outlook as you were at said time with there being no true differentiation.
There is only one other Member I offer this to, but if ever you'd care to discuss things be it via PM, or Discord, I would enjoy setting something up, especially if you feel as if you could benefit from another individuals educated insight.
If only I could ever look toward my own work with the appreciation and in this case, hope that I've seen within other reviews and replies...
As for my situation, depends on when we are contrasting, yet overall in general, I can't say I'm happy, though I can't say I'm surprised either. Given my age I know what I'm going through...
No matter, I wish you all the best,
~Michael

@BaronVonBadGuy I wouldn't mind it. I think you already have me on Discord, mine is EldritchMood. If you feel like talking, just PM me and i will hit you back whenever i check my Profile.

All the better, though I need make a new Discord Account, I can utilize a bit more frequency if when I could log-on with fans made aware of specific days when I have time as I do appreciate all earnest fans and those who view me as an E-Friend.
As the past number of weeks has been dealing strictly responding to a long list of things I needed catch up. Along daily portion dedicated to keeping my mind as sharp as possible.to Online.

Anyhow, as I'll likely be working on a project after this response I wish you all the best. Don't trust anyone who claims to be me, I'll send you my new Discord name when readied.
I have been considering on releasing 2 tracks or so despite one being aged, what was intended to be the succeeding or preceding track/song to "We Ride Upon Horses" and one a method of utilizing something similar to Hypnosis for fans trying to get over traumatic or otherwise undesirable experiences.
As for my Fans they cannot help where it was that I created, and thus if I can find a way to balance all of this without getting canceled I could potentially still utilize this moniker.
Also, nice name, not often I hear such a name, are you by chance Russian? If so I definitely would be interested on your opinion on some literary works that some go so far as to learn the language to properly appreciate Authors such as Dostoevsky. I would be quite curious as to how one fluent in both would feel which language the book Lolita was best written in. As that was Nabokov's first fully English Novel rather than his native Russian tongue, yet he would go on to write a Russian version of Lolita some time later as I understand. Now I have no idea if you have ever read Lolita, but my God, Nabokov floored me with his usage of not only English but bursts of French all written with such care and beauty, he could have cited himself as having a Doctorate in teaching English, Prose and Poetry. His writing is intimidating speaking as someone who wants to make at least a work dealing with similar subject matter based on a few mixtures of legitimate real life events knitted together through Fictional scenarios.

Likewise an RPG I'd like to make, have the Abstract and main story beats, yet would need the help of a pixel Artist and potentially a programmer. This is a story I've wanted to tell since 2011 when it first came to mind...
Now THIS is something I would be fine with releasing under this name.

~Michael

@BaronVonBadGuy Unfortunately, i am not as well versed in books as you are nor am i Russian. I am from Serbia, so while i cannot give you the authentic Ruskie experience as you'd like to have, Russia tends to view/see us as their fellow little sister/cousin country from across the continent. So while i do not understand their tongue fully there are some similar points i can use from my own language where i could vaguely comprehend their speech kinda like the Dane/Swede/Norwegian branch does with their Finn one.
I will check out those books since i am faintly familiar with Lolita (i'ts about that guy thats enamored with a young student or neighbor of his right?) and everybody at least somewhat schooled knows Dostoevsky although his books are LONG and take a while to get through. I am currently though, in the process of fully immersing myself in the German language myself.
Good luck in making that RPG project of yours, sadly i am no artist nor programmer, but at the very least you got that Bounty Board on this site where you could post an ad and see who calls.
As for Discord, mail me your new name or PM me when you are inclined. I tend to try and make up original usernames, since at least that way i can somewhat express myself. If you are looking for names or roundabout ways for metaphors or naming things, i am your man.
My mind is a contradictory Gordian knot wherein I myself canĀ“t fully understand my thoughts or meanings since it's steeped in some many layers of introspection and critique that at the end, i just end up back where i started give or take few steps forward.
Anyways, yeah... wish ya well, talk to ya whenever ya got the time for it or you reply again. Till then, keep cracking at that masterpiece of yours.
My grandmother was a Russian herbalist so hence my name.
~Dmitry